What a week!

I know I have abandoned you all but I have been busy.

I have been involved alot in the church holiday club.

We have had lots of fun, dancing, games, songs, facts and quizzes.

The girls decided they were going to make yogurt pot towers whilst learning to work together



The helpers were always picked on...lol... here is Jacquie partaking yet another messy challenge


 There were even dramas by the helpers (myself included)

Everyday there was a different Bible passage, some of which were, Blind Bartimaus, peter walks on water and The Parable of the Sower

All the children absolutely enjoyed the week and I loved it, it has inspired me to want to get involved with leading Junior Church.

I got so much out this week I never wanted it to end.

Pain

Many people blog about pain looking for pity but that is not my style. I am writing about how I am coping with my pain. A very brief low down my hip and lower back are murder and the pain is relentless. The pain killers are not working as well as they were when I first got them they do still numb it and make it slightly more bearable, the biggest problem is that I can't take them when I am driving so I'm normally not able to take them until the evening. It is hard to cope some days especially when the day ahead is going to be long and tiresome. The thing that gets me through everyday is 2 things; my faith and my kids. I don't know if I explained before I have no children of my own but I see al the children I work with and teach. They are the best motive I have ever known and the joy of working with them is enough to make me grit my teeth and bare it. The other is my faith in god that he will help me and give me the strength. It is at this point I want to thank everyone for their prayers of strength and healing. Many people have called me insane because I won't rest but that I keep going, and others tell me to rest. I have many come backs to them you know the normal ones including "oh I have another one it's fine" and "I'm tough as old boots me" but the truth is that I get bored and lonely sat at home on my own unable to carry a plate so munching on finger food, but never mind I'll live. XxxxxxX

Now I've Done It!!

Whilst working away at Latitude Festival in Suffolk I managed to slip in the mud and sprain my hip. I know that's clever and unusual. There is one thing about me, I don't do things by halves if I'm going to do it I do it properly.

My colleagues Were brilliant they all looked after me and they wouldn't let me out of the security compound on my own because the mud was too treacherous.

I didn't want to go to the med tent or the hospital because I knew the repercussions of it if I did and they are now becoming apparent.

I am not able to do poolside, may not be able to be the first aider at the holiday club next week, I cannot lift carry or support the young lady I look after and I am not able to work (although that comes with the bonus that I don't have to work the Olympics).

I have arranged myself some physio with a friend and she recons I have twinged my back as well, I just can't wait to get back on my feet.

Pray for me

xxx

The Charity

I am very big on charity, but I am a great believer that charity begins at home.

Ok so maybe I am biased.......

I am the Treasurer and a Volunteer at a local charity Bath Swim Therapy, we are a small organisation that teach Disabled Children to swim.

See us on Facebook:
http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Bath-Swim-Therapy/288977751128305
(sorry a little plug is always a must)

In many ways the Charity is my life, I absolutely adore the time I spend there be it in the water teaching or messing around with the Kids or sat on poolside being sensible and mature.

I see all the kids as if they were my own and I love them all dearly. Each one is unique and you will never find one like them.

Two years come October I ODd and the charity pulled me through supporting me when others just ignored me and let me go but Bath Swim Therapy, the children, parents and the swimming teacher supported me whilst I got myself back on my feet. The gave me something to look forward to something to enjoy and with their help I recovered and came back stronger.

They nurtured me not only in my recovery but paid for me to learn how to teach, they gave me responsibility and often a reason to get up in the morning. They would encourage me to talk about what was upsetting me and would help as best they could. I suppose in a way you could call me their prodigy. They turned me into who I am today, a strong, mature, independent yet caring young woman who finds the best in any person and encourages them to strive for achievement. I am not saying that there is some children that can be difficult to do this with at times but it does encourage me to try harder to make that child achieve the goals that we put in front of them and the greatest reward is to see how they improve and to make them aware of it.

Different children, especially the ones that I find difficult to work with at first help me to broaden and refine my skills because what works for one may not necessarily work for another.

Because of them I am able to be who I need to be at the time to get the best out of the child.

I thoroughly enjoy working with all the children as each one has something different to offer, and now I cannot see my life without them in it.

Sometimes I wonder weather or not I have taken on too much of a role with the charity especially when I have days like today when I am struggling with the paperwork. At times like these I look and recall all the children that have improved as a direct result I have had on them and it gives me the motivation to carry on and when I have completed it and made a good job of it I feel an overwhelming sense of accomplishment that I did it, I improved my skills and that I did it on my own.

I don't have to do these things on my own I always have the support of the other parents and the swimming teacher but to know I have achieved it on my own gives me a greater feeling of achievement and I thank my lucky stars that they are always there for me and always will be.

First post

Well here I am, I have started a blog and this is my first post.

Someone once said that with a blog you never need to be alone, that you are free to talk about what you wish, that you will not be judged.

I am sorry but I do not believe that you won't be judged because we do it automatically, but I do believe that we can be ourselves that there is no worrying about what other people think. That is why I am here I am so fed up of the number of facesx i put on for everyone and a different face depending on who I am with. I am not saying that I am dishonest or that I am not true to myself but everyone sees only what I let them see about me depending on how I want them to know me and how I want them to respect me.

I have one rule for myself here ...... that I am who I am no picking or choosing that I remain true to myself and I am not selective of what I show people