It is getting to the point now that I can do things without my stick. Good news you would think.
To me this is a nightmare.
It is hard becuase I now that I am not to push myself too far but I know that I need to go back to work, not just becuase we are desperate for the money but for my own sanity and excitement that I am starting a new job.
I keep thinking can I do it? shall I text my boss and say I can go back to work tonight, tomorrow, next weekend or shall I wait until the 17th when I said?
The sensible side of me says that I should wait for those 2 more weeks to be sure and to properly get off my stick but the other side, the desperate side, is saying you can go without it that you dont need the stick not really you are getting stronger all the time.
GGGRRRRRRR!!!!!!! I wanna go back to work!!!!
Friday, 3 August 2012
Thursday, 2 August 2012
Physio
I have now had 2 lots of physio and all I can say is OMG I hurt after :(
they put me on MEMS machine for 15 mins. It hovers over bare flesh and then I just lie still and let it do its thing for 15 mins. I don't even know what it does because I can't feel it all I know is it helps the muscles to repair.
Got 2 more sessions booked for next week so will keep you all up to date.
they put me on MEMS machine for 15 mins. It hovers over bare flesh and then I just lie still and let it do its thing for 15 mins. I don't even know what it does because I can't feel it all I know is it helps the muscles to repair.
Got 2 more sessions booked for next week so will keep you all up to date.
xxx
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
Stress
I always have been a person who can handle stress well, it has even been said that I thrive on it, however lately I have had a lot of it, maybe too much if I'm honest.
People say to me, you are only young you don't know what stress is!
I may not outwardly appear to be stressed but this is because what is in my heart is private and i will only share it with those who I want to share it with.
I have said before that people only see of me what I let them see and again this is true for this in that the more stress I am under the more outgoing upbeat and light hearted I appear when in truth I feel as though I am tied down by the neck with 20 Tonne boulders.
It makes me frustrated when it is all happening in one go like it is at the moment.
Right now I am:
I don't know if I have mentioned before but I have been through and come out the other side of depression. After my Over Dose I learnt to cope.
There are many methods I use to cope and I would like to share them with you, I can only hope it may help you one day too.
That leads me onto my first coping mechanism.
Helping Others
I always make time for others. I find that being away from the situation is one of the most helpful keys when coping with stress. I find when you are helping others you are not on your own you are part of a team.
Teamwork
Being in a team means you can have fun and enjoy whatever menial task you are completing by laughing and joking, messing around or just having a good old gossip and it can make you forget for a short time about your stresses and worries for a short time helping you to relax.
Relax
Everyone knows you think with your brain but people forget that the brain is also a muscle and it cannot work so effectively when tense, so relax however you do best be that down the pub, in a hot bath, or during mad passionate sex, relax however you find easiest and don't think about it the answer will come easier (even if it doesn't you have had some you time).
Talking
It is important to talk to someone about it, anybody will do. I find it is best to talk to someone who isn't involved in the situation, be it a family member, a friend, a confidante, or a counsellor. It's not necessarily that you are asking for advice but by putting it into words logically that can make you see the problem from a different perspective meaning you make a connection that you wouldn't otherwise make.
Optimism
Personally I was always a pessimist. I had the logic that if I expect the worst I can never be disappointed. This is true however the power of the mind is an incredible thing. It's the one thing I can't explain but in my experience if you think positive good things happen, as well as keeping your mood positive. I will admit this one takes a lot of practice especially when you feel everything is against you but keep at it, it is like any skill, it becomes easier with practice.
And the last one.......
Small mercies
Always be thankful of any small grace and/or mercy. Again it takes practice to be able to identify them as they come in so many forms I would crash all our computers if I tried to list them but I use rule of thumb that if it makes you smile or bake things a little easier even just for a few seconds that it is a small blessing. You'll be surprised how many you encounter in a day, and how many you create yourself. That first sip of a brew, the status on facebook that makes you laugh, the person who smiles at you round the shop.
The most important thing though is not only free but simple.
People say to me, you are only young you don't know what stress is!
I beg to differ
I may not outwardly appear to be stressed but this is because what is in my heart is private and i will only share it with those who I want to share it with.
I have said before that people only see of me what I let them see and again this is true for this in that the more stress I am under the more outgoing upbeat and light hearted I appear when in truth I feel as though I am tied down by the neck with 20 Tonne boulders.
It makes me frustrated when it is all happening in one go like it is at the moment.
Right now I am:
- Off work because of injury
- Dealing with my sister's problems because she is useless and makes them worse
- Not able to cover the bills (not including the rent, petrol, gas, electric and food when I say bills - I guess they just won't get paid at all)
- My Husband's money has been cut
- My Husband not going to the doctor about his health
- Arguing with my Husband
- And one other I shall not discuss on here
Coping Mechanisms
I don't know if I have mentioned before but I have been through and come out the other side of depression. After my Over Dose I learnt to cope.
There are many methods I use to cope and I would like to share them with you, I can only hope it may help you one day too.
That leads me onto my first coping mechanism.
Helping Others
I always make time for others. I find that being away from the situation is one of the most helpful keys when coping with stress. I find when you are helping others you are not on your own you are part of a team.
Teamwork
Being in a team means you can have fun and enjoy whatever menial task you are completing by laughing and joking, messing around or just having a good old gossip and it can make you forget for a short time about your stresses and worries for a short time helping you to relax.
Relax
Everyone knows you think with your brain but people forget that the brain is also a muscle and it cannot work so effectively when tense, so relax however you do best be that down the pub, in a hot bath, or during mad passionate sex, relax however you find easiest and don't think about it the answer will come easier (even if it doesn't you have had some you time).
Talking
It is important to talk to someone about it, anybody will do. I find it is best to talk to someone who isn't involved in the situation, be it a family member, a friend, a confidante, or a counsellor. It's not necessarily that you are asking for advice but by putting it into words logically that can make you see the problem from a different perspective meaning you make a connection that you wouldn't otherwise make.
Optimism
Personally I was always a pessimist. I had the logic that if I expect the worst I can never be disappointed. This is true however the power of the mind is an incredible thing. It's the one thing I can't explain but in my experience if you think positive good things happen, as well as keeping your mood positive. I will admit this one takes a lot of practice especially when you feel everything is against you but keep at it, it is like any skill, it becomes easier with practice.
And the last one.......
Small mercies
Always be thankful of any small grace and/or mercy. Again it takes practice to be able to identify them as they come in so many forms I would crash all our computers if I tried to list them but I use rule of thumb that if it makes you smile or bake things a little easier even just for a few seconds that it is a small blessing. You'll be surprised how many you encounter in a day, and how many you create yourself. That first sip of a brew, the status on facebook that makes you laugh, the person who smiles at you round the shop.
The most important thing though is not only free but simple.
SMILE
:)
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